SHOCK!!!

OMG i’ve gotten a big shock in my whole entire life!!!

OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG

cant get over it mansxz!!

whooooooooooooo~

*and to you guys, i am feeling that something even worse is gna come from you guys..*

*i am totally terrified..*

ANYBODY HELP ME?!?!?!?!

everyday faces same terror, same treatment!!

somebody get me outta this!!

30march’10

For you.. ??

Danielle! I’m very sorry about just now ): Because seriously i dont want to面对them so i so agitated.. sorry!! i feel very guilty now omg. sorry i make you kena punishment! sorry…

fireflies

i love this song, and whenever i hear this song, i’ll tend to cry…

 

Fireflies lyrics

You would not believe your eyes
If ten million fireflies
Lit up the world as I fell asleep

‘Cause they’d fill the open air
And leave teardrops everywhere
You’d think me rude
But I would just stand and stare

I’d like to make myself believe
That planet Earth turns slowly
It’s hard to say that I’d rather stay
Awake when I’m asleep
‘Cause everything is never as it seems

‘Cause I’d get a thousand hugs
From ten thousand lightning bugs
As they tried to teach me how to dance

A foxtrot above my head
A sock hop beneath my bed
A disco ball is just hanging by a thread

I’d like to make myself believe
That planet Earth turns slowly
It’s hard to say that I’d rather stay
Awake when I’m asleep
‘Cause everything is never as it seems
When I fall asleep

Leave my door open just a crack
(Please take me away from here)
‘Cause I feel like such an insomniac
(Please take me away from here)
Why do I tire of counting sheep
(Please take me away from here)
When I’m far too tired to fall asleep

To ten million fireflies
I’m weird ’cause I hate goodbyes
I got misty eyes as they said farewell

But I’ll know where several are
If my dreams get real bizarre
‘Cause I saved a few and I keep them in a jar

I’d like to make myself believe
That planet Earth turns slowly
It’s hard to say that I’d rather stay
Awake when I’m asleep
‘Cause everything is never as it seems
When I fall asleep

I’d like to make myself believe
That planet Earth turns slowly
It’s hard to say that I’d rather stay
Awake when I’m asleep
‘Cause everything is never as it seems
When I fall asleep

I’d like to make myself believe
That planet earth turns slowly
It’s hard to say that I’d rather stay
Awake when I’m asleep
Because my dreams are bursting at the seams

give up seriously

yesterday night, cried and cried and cried, sharing my deep inside burden with Danielle.. Feeling abit better.. But whenever i think of them, i’ll tend to shut myself off from God.. Everything now is so screwed up, everything now is making me tumble down.. What should i do? I dont feel Love at all!! I dont feel love from the people that i seek love from.. I know you guys will say God is my true love, i know you guys want me to seek it from God. I did try! But it just goes worse!! I never feel love, instead, i felt even more hurt!! And whenever i seek for God, nothing is happening!! I feel so tired to seek for God, i scared i will just slip off and shut myself off from the world.. I hate the feeling i am having now! Can i just simply give up?!?! I’m tired, very very tired..

Whenever i see your message, i’ll always pray for peace in my mind, because your reply means everything to me! Your love means everything to me!! Quality Time please.. I’m trying to stop myself from thinking about the worse things, but it just cant seems to get off from my mind!! Everything so screwed.. Sorry if i disappointed you. I’m super depress..

Danielle, i’m trying to pick myself up already. I’m trying to stop thinking about those things already.. I just want to feel love and cared!!!!!! ): TGFY yeah.

You’re my everything, my dear ❤

Owl_City_-_Fireflies.mp3

SORRY!!

Sorry to Danielle, Luanchun, Chrystal! ):

i’m so sorry!! they did that to you guys! sorry ):

i didn’t mean it!!!

hope you guys are not angry! ):

things are getting worse for me.

nothing can ever solve it, nothing can just stop all nonsense!

they’re forcing me to the max, making me hate them even more each day.

i know i cant hate, i am trying my best not to hate already..

everything is so screwed up..

just because of a small little matter.. they never ever going to stop all those..

they seriously killing me physically..

i’m serious..

making me suffer everytime!

one day i’ll get depression, i’m not joking..

i am physically, mentally, emotionally HURT!

nothing is gna heal it all..

danielle, sorry about what happen today. They’re just mean and cruel and disiao.. dont take it heart. sorry

):

really damn sad.. damn angry.. damn lost..

dont know what to do..

dont know who will care, seems like nobody..

wish i could disappear into thin air..

never ever appear on earth anymore!

seriously, i have nothing to say about everything that has happened.

God, can you help me??!!

i really dont know what’s the perfect solution mansxz!

met a new friend in usher during meta.

her name is Danielle! 🙂

friendly is she 🙂

good listening ears! 🙂

i love her! (as sisters in christ)

Cui!

i feel damn restless! i feel damn sad!

it just seems like nobody cares for me!!

i dont feel the love!! WHY!!

i seriously dont know how to survive!

HELP!!

i keep feel that nobody is there for me, nobody wants to bother about me!!

why?!?!?

anybody help!!??

i really hate this kind of feeling! why am i feeling this way?!?!?!?!

God! can you enlighten me?!

i just feel that there’s nobody there for me, i just feel that nobody is willing to lend their shoulders for me.

WHY!!!!!!!!!!

Bad days

i had a bad week, with problems and problems approaching..

i didnt know what to do really.

everytime asking for help, making me feel so useless.

i know i have to count myself, cant depend on people, but seriously, im really too weak to even make decisions!

i tried praying, but it just doesnt help, God just seems too far away from me, always making me feeling lethargic, feel like giving up..

seriously, what can i do?

all those things that those particular people did to me, i did not mumble a single thing.. i let you all be already, can you guys just stop it?

i dont know why, i dont feel the love that people gives me, i dont feel their care and concern for me..

i just feeling very restless now, i am really very scared that one day, i may just disappear from all of you..

what can i do??

boooooooo

this few days was bad? i guess.

many things again and again and again never ending..

dont know what am i gna do with it like SERIOUSLY!

everything is stressing me up, many things are upsetting me..

and there’s lots of hurts.

i seriously feel like giving up always!!

but people around me keep asking me not to,

some are forcing me to!

i’m really confused..

anybody can untie the knot???

i seriously need some help here!!

TGFY

i want to thank God for a few people here.

LuanChun, Misha, Chrystal, Manlyn, Bernadette.

They really stand by me when some things occur.

really love you guys alot!

thank God for you! 😀